I'm actually very disappointed in someone today. This person literally harassed me you could say. They accused me of lying without being direct about it and was very demanding about what I ought to do for them even though I told that person that I couldn't at the moment. I was not even within reach of what was expected of me to do.
I found that very rude. But mostly disappointed that someone can let you down like that. Someone that you trusted and thought you knew well, you know? Then they call you names and give you unreasonable expectations. It's like, what kind of a friend is that? And because their schedule is so tight and they need something urgent and I can't be there they just lash out on me. Did I say I wouldn't help? Did I say I would let them down? If I was stuck in traffic, would I be able to drive any faster?? I was very occupied today. But no, they just kept on harassing me to be instant and available. NOW.
I find people like these very inconsiderate, unreasonable, and mainly selfish. At the end of the day I got an apology that was very very vague. I don't think that apology settles anything because it was insincere and they didn't even seem like they knew what they were supposed to apologize for. I guess this is the end. It's a carry over from 2011, that's why this 2012 start seems so gloom. Man, what did I even do? Now to say I have not forgiven is a misunderstanding though. I did forgive this person even before the pretense apology. Or seemingly inarticulate apology. What more can I do. I can't stay mad at someone and let it hinder my life. Let myself boil in anger and let them have the upper hand and control my feelings? If anything, anger hurts me more than the other person. And, I don't even know how to feel angry anymore to be honest. What does that feel like after the first time, second, third, and fourth, fifth times? God gave me peace to go through this tough time. And let me put it this way, tough time(S). It was more than once.
Feels like a part of me just died. It died a while ago but now ever so completely and surely. You made it very clear this time.
Forgiveness is to be given but trust is earned. I'll never look at you in the same light again. I'm sorry for you and how things ended up. I will cherish the good times we had.
Peace.
I found that very rude. But mostly disappointed that someone can let you down like that. Someone that you trusted and thought you knew well, you know? Then they call you names and give you unreasonable expectations. It's like, what kind of a friend is that? And because their schedule is so tight and they need something urgent and I can't be there they just lash out on me. Did I say I wouldn't help? Did I say I would let them down? If I was stuck in traffic, would I be able to drive any faster?? I was very occupied today. But no, they just kept on harassing me to be instant and available. NOW.
I find people like these very inconsiderate, unreasonable, and mainly selfish. At the end of the day I got an apology that was very very vague. I don't think that apology settles anything because it was insincere and they didn't even seem like they knew what they were supposed to apologize for. I guess this is the end. It's a carry over from 2011, that's why this 2012 start seems so gloom. Man, what did I even do? Now to say I have not forgiven is a misunderstanding though. I did forgive this person even before the pretense apology. Or seemingly inarticulate apology. What more can I do. I can't stay mad at someone and let it hinder my life. Let myself boil in anger and let them have the upper hand and control my feelings? If anything, anger hurts me more than the other person. And, I don't even know how to feel angry anymore to be honest. What does that feel like after the first time, second, third, and fourth, fifth times? God gave me peace to go through this tough time. And let me put it this way, tough time(S). It was more than once.
Feels like a part of me just died. It died a while ago but now ever so completely and surely. You made it very clear this time.
Forgiveness is to be given but trust is earned. I'll never look at you in the same light again. I'm sorry for you and how things ended up. I will cherish the good times we had.
Peace.
